When a church lets you down...

When a church lets you down... you feel hurt, upset, lonely... scared to join another church, but knowing you can't go it alone...

that didn't last long! back on meds :(

Well, that didn't last long. Just a couple of days after seeing the dr, I had a real downer. Also my sleep has been disrupted, always a bad sign. I do not want to have times like that. So have decided not to try and come off meds. Also, my diet- well I'm just eating carefully, not sticking to the prescribed diet. I still hope to lose weight, but it'll be very gradual. I also have booked onto outdoor fitness sessions- I really want to get fit again.

 The church is still good. I've got to tell friends from my old church, we've just slipped quietly away. But, no-one seems to have noticed, or been in touch- but I just got to get in touch with them i suppose.

found a church! now coming off meds!

yay! i found a church. it's not an orthodox church- i don't believe a lot of their stuff anyway. it's a lot like the chapel i grew up in. it's called a free church. not sure what that means! it's old fashioned, non flashy, straightforward- 4 hymns, 2 prayers and a sermon- but all so fervent, and alive- even though they're not dancing down the aisles, or even raising their hands. it's a small, suburban congregation, meeting 15 mins drive away, just around the ring-road, 2 suburbs away.so an easy drive, still in the north of the city. our previous church was in the south of the city, not a bad drive on a sunday, but awful during the week. so we've been to the midweek meetings these last 2 weeks, and my kids are going to the kids club tonight. i am excited. we have found a new family, and it's good to get involved.

now, my meds. i stopped taking them this week which was foolish. i went to see my g.p this morning. she advised me to stay on the prozac, and reduce the lithium very slowly. so that's what i'll do. hope it's ok! i so want to be free of the meds and all the side-effects- especially the weight gain. i'm eating healthily, and moderately- still not losing any weight. i hope i can be med-free by the end of this year.